Dave Cullen, author of Columbine

Soldiers First
My second book (From HarperCollins, in 2017)

Two gay colonels quietly battle for love and freedom inside the great American war machine rumbling through the Middle East.

A love story and a soldiers' story — at war.

Written by a former solider, who has followed these soldiers a decade and a half, Soldiers First tells their gripping story, before, during and after the policy that played havoc with their lives.

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Soldiers First began in 2000 with a long piece on three gay captains for Salon.com. I spent five months with several soldiers and Marines in Colorado Springs and was stunned to discover how their world was completely different than what I'd seen, heard and described on the outside. It was easy for them to find quick, meaningless sportsex under the policy, but nearly impossible to find a boyfriend. So we named it Don't ask, Don't tell, Don't fall in love. Part 2 is called A heartbreaking decision.

It was the best thing I'd written to that point, and won the GLAAD Media Award for best on-line story of the year.

I took my time writing Columbine (ten years, total), and hopefully got it right. I wanted something even more intimate for my second book. I spent another four years researching, writing and contemplating, before I committed to the project in 2013. The further I got, the more I knew: this is the story I have to tell.

The gay captains I profiled in 2000 went on to lead even more tumultuous lives. Two were promoted to Major and then Lt. Colonel, serving in all three of our recent wars, as well as precarious missions on several other continents. I have been following their struggles for fifteen years and I could not invent fiction this intense. It is a love story and a soldiers' story—at war.


You can get a brief taste of what's coming in recent pieces I published:

You can read press coverage of the book acquisition and here is the official announcement. ("Harper" is the flagship imprint within HarperCollins):

(October 24, 2013) Harper Executive editor Tim Duggan has acquired North American rights to Soldiers First by Dave Cullen, New York Times Bestselling author of Columbine, winner of the Edgar Award and Barnes and Noble Discover Prize. A former soldier himself, Cullen offers a war story and a love story in this account of two closeted gay men whose lives and quest for love paralleled the Don't Ask Don't Tell policy. Sold at auction by Betsy Lerner at Dunow, Carlson and Lerner Literary Agency.

We met with nearly a dozen publishing houses to discuss the project over two intense weeks, and I was really impressed by the Harper team. They share my vision for the book. I am really excited about working with them, and bringing this story to you.


Over time, I hope to get many related resources up on this site. We will definitely create book club questions and hopefully we can create another Teacher's Guide, as we did with Columbine.

So start thinking about it for your book clubs and classes and let me know how HarperCollins or I can help with that. Thanks.

The support you all showed on my last book meant the world to me.


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