The Brokeback Mountain 'Lovesick" Diet

[Lola]

You kind of look like a really young Fred Gywnne! 

[Ellen (tellyouwhat)]

Finished watching Open Water on my cpu because it had to many instances of the "F" word for general viewing in my house.  My wife would go ballistic hearing it said so many times in Brokeback...that fuckin' Ennis Del Mar talking about the fuckin' Jack Twist...LOL.  Seems like sometimes all they did was either do it or say it...or dream about it!!!  I'm feelin' like Jack Nastymouth today!  I think it's because I'm a little nervous.  Listen guys, this kidney thing worries me for only one reason.  I think what they're going to do is find out they don't know enough and will have to 'explore' and see.  I know, that's not a positive mental attitude, but I work with 50 docs and I'm around them all day and I'll bet without a doubt they'd say, 'Let's go take a look see.'  I apologize for even mentioning this little challenge

I checked this morning and sure enough I have to drink the barium AND have the dye contrast in my veins. 

Hi Bobby -

It's understandable you would be nervous!  We all hate "not knowing" and of course we can't help imagining different scenarios.  I just went through a long wait with my mom -- won't go through all the details but they found suspicious lumps which could not be immediately identified -- they waited for months due to her coumadin schedule (deciding the coumadin was more important than the biopsy).  Finally her wait is over but the hardest part was the wait, the "not knowing."  You are only human, but you inspire us all with focusing on the positive. (and sticking to your diet!)

[Bobby19in1963]

Hey! All:

It was a snap.  I started drinking the barium at noon and finished both bottles by 1:15 as I arrived at the office.  Funiest thing happened...while I was waiting (you always have to wait in a medical office) I fell asleep and my head drooped and I drooled this big patch of drool on the front of my shirt.  I don't think anyone noticed, but when I awoke with a start I felt really foolish.  Then the male nurse, a nice guy, came and took me back for the CT scan.  He had me drink a little more barium and then started the I.V. for the dye.  He asked me to raise my I.V.ed arm over my head and support it in my right hand.  Then he pushed the button that moved me into the machine.  It is an open MRI / Spiral CT scan machine, so there was no claustrophobia at all.  A quick scan to get their bearings and then a long pre-dye scan, then the dye went in.  Another funny thing is that my bum got all warm and flushed from the dye...weirdest thing ever...but it only lasted less than a minute I would guess.  Then a post dye scan and another comparison one and I was done.

Only took about 20-25 minutes once I was in.

So that part is gone, and I want to tell you that while I was in the machine starring at the top of it I thought of all of my friends here and how important it made me feel that you would think good thoughts for me.  I appreciate it and hope my good thoughts going out to each of you makes a difference.

Since I started my at-home V-Kation today, my wife and I went out to Chili's for dinner...I had the sirloin steak and it was totally deeelicious!  Interesting that I was not hungry for a long time after that meal.

Perhaps you've heard that Phoenix area has two serial killers on the loose.  One has shot at least 35 people and animals and between the two (the other is called the Serial Rapist) they have killed seven people.  WeLLLLL...now they think the first one has branched out and shot a man riding his bike at 4:45 a.m. in Mesa!  The scariest things is...THIS IS THE EXACT ROUTE I TOOK FOR A MONTH ON MY OUTSIDE BIKE!  It could have easily been me that was shot last night, except I'm such a clutdze at fixing things and didn't know how to replace my broken spoke...so I've been riding inside and at the Y for the last couple of weeks.  I was telling everyone at work who knew I rode early in the morning from 4:30 a.m. to about 6:00 a.m. that I didn't have to worry the guy was only killing people in Phoenix!

Littledarlin' I was watching Joel Osteen tonight...I taped one of his cable half hours about Remembering...and he talked about how God would bless us by providing answers to our prayers...etc...well, I think that "SPROING!" I heard that Saturday morning two weeks ago when my spoke broke was God saying, "Bobby da Buff...time for you to ride inside for awhile!"  Like Olsteen says, we have to remember the times He has been good to us...and I'm going to count this one as the time He saved my life from the serial killer...because, no lie, this is the exact route I took along the canal every morning for almost two months!

This may be too much religion for some of you...but when I came out to the first person ever, after myself, it was a good friend who said, "There are no accidents in life."  I believe she's right.

I love each and every one of you that kept me in your prayers...and pray for your health and safety also.

Bobby

[Lola]

I have chills just reading about that serial killer Bobby and thinking of you taking that route!!    God bless the 7 people who died.

http://www.examiner.com/a-176841~Phoenix_Killings_Spark_Serial_Killer_Scare.html

I am glad the test was comfortable, now any word on when they will have the results? 

[Daphne and Chloe]

Wonderful picture Bobby. Thanks for posting it. Good to have a picture with your name. Although I'm not posting a pic of myself!  :-[

I have heard about that serial killer. I have a friend with a daughter living in Phoenix. Sometimes I feel when I walk out the door I may never come back. One never knows what could happen. Does anyone else ever feel that way? Not trying to be too fatalistic. Just wondering.

[littledarlin]

Sometimes I feel when I walk out the door I may never come back. One never knows what could happen. Does anyone else ever feel that way? Not trying to be too fatalistic. Just wondering.

I live near lots of water and I often think how would I escape from a submerged car, I run thru it all the time, trying to have a game plan just in case.  I don't ever imagine it would happen but you just never know.


Lola, thanks for the lovely pictures, they always make my day.  Sorry I've been slacking on the recipes RL has been long and exhausting lately, but should be back to normal soon.

Bobby,  I owe you a PM will send it very soon! 

Perhaps you've heard that Phoenix area has two serial killers on the loose.  One has shot at least 35 people and animals and between the two (the other is called the Serial Rapist) they have killed seven people.  WeLLLLL...now they think the first one has branched out and shot a man riding his bike at 4:45 a.m. in Mesa!  The scariest things is...THIS IS THE EXACT ROUTE I TOOK FOR A MONTH ON MY OUTSIDE BIKE!  It could have easily been me that was shot last night, except I'm such a clutdze at fixing things and didn't know how to replace my broken spoke...so I've been riding inside and at the Y for the last couple of weeks.  I was telling everyone at work who knew I rode early in the morning from 4:30 a.m. to about 6:00 a.m. that I didn't have to worry the guy was only killing people in Phoenix!

Littledarlin' I was watching Joel Osteen tonight...I taped one of his cable half hours about Remembering...and he talked about how God would bless us by providing answers to our prayers...etc...well, I think that "SPROING!" I heard that Saturday morning two weeks ago when my spoke broke was God saying, "Bobby da Buff...time for you to ride inside for awhile!"  Like Olsteen says, we have to remember the times He has been good to us...and I'm going to count this one as the time He saved my life from the serial killer...because, no lie, this is the exact route I took along the canal every morning for almost two months!

This may be too much religion for some of you...but when I came out to the first person ever, after myself, it was a good friend who said, "There are no accidents in life."  I believe she's right.

I love each and every one of you that kept me in your prayers...and pray for your health and safety also.

Bobby

I don't watch any news or newspapers anymore so I'm kinda not up on anything.  I am shocked to hear about these serial killers and horrified to know they are so close to you Bobby.  I pray for the families of those who have been killed and for the police to find them quickly.  Yes God was with you (always) and you were blessed with clutdzyness and I bet you thought it was a bad thing!!  Stay inside until they are all caught please.  I finally finished class, have lots to ask/tell you about that.  Hope you're having a great vackay.  Mine starts Sunday.  Will bring laptop!!

gnite
karla

[Lola]

A pic for a recipie Littledarlin! 

Hey Bobby, how are you doing?

[littledarlin]

A pic for a recipie Littledarlin! 

Oh yeah, that's some serious motivation Lola!!  What a great pic!!  Gotta walk the dogs then I'll be back with a recipe. 

This week's results:

lost 2.4 lb(woohoo!!), increased exercise intensity and frequency(my dogs think I'm out to kill them ), and I have started eating mini-meals (instead of not eating) and adding a little protein with my fruit.  Not cottage cheese, Bobby, didn't ya ever see Animal House??, but usually an apple with a little natural peanut butter.  Ok gotta walk, it's like a sauna here!!

[littledarlin]

Here's a recipe for a lighter taco salad.  Enjoy

California Taco Salad

1 small head iceberg (yuck!) or romaine lettuce (yum, much better choice) chopped, about 6 cups
1 15oz can black or red beans (I like black), drained
1/2 cup shredded cheddar cheese
1 Avocado, diced
1 mango or 2 tomatoes, diced
1/3 cup  sliced black olives, drained
1/2 lb cooked chicken or lean ground beef, seasoned with salt and chili powder
1 Tbs lime juice
1/2 cup vinaigrette dressing
1 cup broken tortilla chips or corn kernels
Light Sour Cream (optional)
Mild Salsa (optional)


In a large bowl, mix together lettuce, beans, cheese, avocado, mango or tomatoes, olives, and chicken.  Sprinkle with lime juice and vinaigrette and toss thoroughly.  Top salad if desired with sour cream and salsa.

Serves 6-8.  Calories:  280, protein: 25g , carbs: 24g, fat: 10g, Sat Fat: 3g, cholesterol: 55mg, fiber: 7g, sodium: 210mg



And for dessert.......


Angel Food Trifle

Makes 6 servings

1 cup skim milk ricotta cheese
2 cups no-sugar vanilla flavored yogurt
1/2 angel food cake, cut into 1" cubes
2 cups thawed frozen unsweetened berries (or fresh, if in season)
1/4 cup + 2 Tbsp whipped dessert topping

Mix together ricotta cheese and yogurt in a blender/food processor until smooth.  Arrange half of the cake cubes in the bottom of a medium sized glass bowl.  Top with one cup of the berries.  Top with 1 1/2 cups of the cheese/yogurt mixture.  Top with layers of remaining cake cubes, 3/4 cup berries, and the remaining cheese/yogurt mixture.  Decorate with the remaining 1/4 cup berries.  Top each with 1 tbsp whipped topping.

Sorry no calorie amounts, this is a Weight Watchers recipe, counts for 5 points.  Makes 6 servings.

Pictures please Lola!!  None with Nathalie portman tho, they seem to be dating?! 

Bobby hope you've had a great vacation.  I'll talk to you soon!!

gnite
karla

[Bobby19in1963]

Good news!  The doc's office called while we were driving to our friend's house for my mini-vacation and said that the radiologist doesn't think there is a problem with what he saw.  He wants me to bring him the copies of my ultrasound just to double check.  Whew!  That was good news...but, now I have to find another alternative for getting a tummy tuck!  (I don't want to sound ungrateful for good news...I'm extremely grateful!).

The one-day trip was wonderful.  We visited with a friend from college and her husband who live in a small Arizona community of about 3500 people in north central part of the state near Prescott.  They are building a wonderful home on 80 acres with a beautiful views of a lovely mountain range.  They've had lots of rain this summer so the range is green.  It is at about 5,000 feet.  For lunch we went to a place called Leff-T's (no kiddin') and I was so surprised this little podunk place had baked Walleye and a salad with a Prickley Pear vinegarette, and homemade whole wheat buns.  I also had a special soup of the day, shrimp bisque.  For dessert I had homemade peach cobbler with TWO scoops of deelicious vanilla ice cream.

I weighed in today and I weighed in at 210...so I actually lost a little even though we've been eating out almost all week.

The drive did me good...but in the meantime before we left on Thursday I saw my psychologist and he proved again that he is smart and wonderful.  More about that later.  Just got to the point in the movie where they are in the motel and Jack says, "Brokeback got us good.  What are we gonna do now?"  That's where I am...still.

I'm watching and listening to the movie on my computer tonight for the first time in several months.  Was going to see it with a friend tomorrow, at her house, but had to cancel because a mutual friend couldn't make it.

Thanx! to everyone for prayers and good thoughts.  It worked!

Bobby

[Bobby19in1963]

A pic for a recipie Littledarlin! 

Hey Bobby, how are you doing?

Lola, Lola, Lola...you can drive a gay guy crazy with pix like that!  Looks like he forgot that harmonica again...but brought his sexy bike outfit!  Having just finished Lance's book I'm still infected by it.  Did I tell you I had to read near a box of Kleenex...I had no idea that it would affect me that way.

[Lola]

Apparently Jake is set to play Lance in a movie about his life!

Thanks for the recipie Littledarlin, that one sounds soooooooooooooo good!

Good news Bobby, you hang in there.  Glad to hear you got some good results and had a nice little holiday! 

[Bobby19in1963]

OMG look at you, you are as cute a bug's ear!!  If that was you 65 pounds ago, I can't imagine you now, because you look great in this picture!   

Got to thinking that I really don't want my picture up yet, so I deleted the post.  The few of you who saw it were the most important ones.

Bobby

[annabel]

You know, when saw the original post here for starting this thread, I thought, "That's just how I feel"  I almost couldn't eat.  My stomach was in knots.  Anyway, that "first love" feeling has left, but the weight my doctor had told me previously told me to lose had been stuck at 10 lbs. and since I saw the movie (and a lot of motivation) I've lost 35 more.  I never realized how fat I was!

I noticed now that men actually flirt with me!  Now, how pathetic  is this.  In May of 2005 my doctor told me my sugar was high and to lose weight.  So from May to December when I saw the movie, I took off that measely 10 lbs.  After the movie, bam!  Just one more reason for loving it!

[Bobby19in1963]

Annabel:

Thanx! for posting and congrats on losing the weight.  This Brokeback thing just keeps going on and on!

Funny thing is happening to me...I feel like I'm in round two.  I pulled back from the whole Brokeback thing, posted here, tried to remain kind of aloof to the feelings, but then I got back on the How the Movie Affected Me thread and all of those feelings came rushing back in...now on the way to work this morning I was weeping at the songs on the songtrack again!  What's that all about???

So...ever looking for more strategy...I've decided I'm ready for
Brokeback Mountain Lovesick Diet ROUND TWO !
I'm at 210 and want to lose down to 170...40 more lubs...so I'm going to use those emotions for all they're worth and GO FOR IT!  Today's a new day.

Let's see, how did I do it before?  I faithfully exercised every day.  I watched the protein and carbs I ate, making sure I had plenty for energy and plenty for muscle.  I drank only one cup of milk at dinner.  I made sure the portion sizes were correct.  I did not eat as much fruit as I'm eating now.  I didn't have any ice cream.  No snacks that weren't good for me and for my eating plan.  Drank lots of water.  Weighed every day (that's something they say not to do...but for me it is an instant check on what's happening in my eating plan).  I concentrated on the goal and reminded myself along the way of what the rewards were going to be.

I'm living 65 lbs of rewards now...my pants are new and fit nicely...and, Annabel, some even say I'm handsome!  (Hoot!)  I can sit all day long with a belt on and not have acid indigestion, or reflux problems.  I can walk much faster, and I don't get out of breath like I used to.  Exercise is a normal part of my life, and I enjoy it all.  I like who i see in the mirror each day.

I'm more honest with myself, while as of yet I still have secrets from so many.

Well...I guess from time to time we all need to recommit.  This is my recommitment!

Bobby...time for lunch...Salmon in my wonderful salad, with apple and bell pepper and tomato on a bed of spinach...Vidalia Onion dressing...ain't life good???!!!