How Brokeback Affected Me--continued

[gnash]

Same to you, Nellie!

whoa!

[Ennis Del Mark]

Does this picture go further down?   

[atruant]

Congratulations on your 100K Chuck! Love all the times we have got together over the last four or so years, and looking forward to many more!!

    

[lovelyamazing]

Congratulations Chuck on 100K 
We must meet in person before you hit 200K 
Thank you for everything, especially the sweet nickname LovAm which was bestowed by you and which I cherish. God Bless You!
Love & 

[MaineGirl]

((((((((((((((((((((((Chuck))))))))))))))))))) 

Congratulations!

[fofol]

Love and respect to you also, Chuck.  Life would be a much sorrier place without you to take the time...

[mcnell1120]

Same to you, Nellie!

OMG...I just saw this!! ha ha ha.....niiiiiiice Fritzie!!   

[dejavu]

I am so very glad that you were all here for me when I needed you, and in turn, I hope that I've been there for you as well when you needed me.

It's now almost 5 years for the anniversary of our movie, and it's been one hell of a ride, and I look forward to all the twists, turns, and new faces to meet, and the new stories to hear, and share.

Brokeback Mountain is what got us here.
Our friendships are what keep us here.

It has been a pleasure to be a member and moderator of this forum.  Thank you for everything.
Much love and respect to you all.
Chuck

Great post, Chuck.  Thank YOU for being here and for being a friend.

[mcnell1120]

I can close my eyes and see them on their horses...their faces gleaming with love with sparkle in their eyes.

Out of no where I get flash backs of the movie...it will forever haunt me but in a good way...in some ways it saddens me that I can't share it with no one at home...that's why I am here now.

Out of no where I feel a pull in my heart and only I know what it is...some days people tell me, "Is something on your mind?"......"nope" I say back and smile...

It's my little secret

I allow myself a few seconds and continue with my day....lots of times it helps me tackle what I have to do..

I allow myself to cry if I have to, think of all the people I grown to love, people I have missed,people I have lost...but in the end...I smile and close my eyes and thank God for all he's given me....life is good now

And it's all mine,no one can take it away from me

Peace y amor

Nellie



  

[CellarDweller115]

besos Nellie! 

[BayCityJohn]

Forum member 'Tacitus' has passed away.

Writer Robert Baxter recalled

Robert Baxter, a Courier-Post writer who provided a voice for the South Jersey arts community for almost three decades, has died.

Mr. Baxter, 69, was a critic and reporter whose work reflected a high degree of talent and expertise. But many people on Thursday remembered his passion,
describing a quiet and reserved man with a lifelong love for the fine arts, particularly opera.
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On occasion, Mr. Baxter's work could be intensely personal. In an August 2005 column inspired by the release of the film "Brokeback Mountain,"
Mr. Baxter came out in print as a gay man -- recounting the pain of keeping the secret from his family, even after a severe beating in a gay-bashing incident.

"I locked away a lifetime of hate and persecution in an emotional tinderbox," he wrote at the time. "It ignited when I saw "Brokeback Mountain.' "

Three of his works also appeared in "Beyond Brokeback: The Impact of a Film," a 2007 collection of personal stories culled from tens of thousands of contributions.

http://www.courierpostonline.com/article/20100827/NEWS01/8270334/Writer-Robert-Baxter-recalled

[BayCityJohn]

One of Robert's articles has been re-published today on the Courier-Times online edition.

This story is also published in our book "Beyond Brokeback: The Impact of a Film" as "The Brokeback Miracle"


Real-life cowboys offered hope to young man growing up gay in America


I know all about the homophobia that existed in 1963, the year Jack and Ennis met on Brokeback Mountain. I came out that same summer -- not in rural Wyoming but at a liberal California university.

Like Ennis, I kept telling myself, "I ain't no queer." Finally, after years of tortured denial, I embraced what I am. Gay.

It was rough then. There were no support groups and no resources available to provide a helping hand as we struggled to accept our sexuality and overcome the self-loathing society heaped on us.

Five of my close friends at Stanford, I later discovered, also were gay. But that was a subject we couldn't raise with each other until years later. We were too uptight and, I guess, ashamed. So we led our secret lives.

Three visual metaphors from Brokeback Mountain echo in the memories of every gay man who came out when Ennis and Jack were struggling to accept their love -- the closet, the bloodied shirts and the tire iron.

Most gay men then were wedged in a closet so tight and airless we could barely breathe. We all had our bloodied shirts -- the secrets, the pain and hurt we experienced. And we all feared the tire iron that could strike suddenly and violently.




Full article is here:

http://www.courierpostonline.com/article/20100827/NEWS01/8270344/Real-life-cowboys-offered-hope-to-young-man-growing-up-gay-in-America

[gnash]

thanks for posting those links, john.

it was nice to read his story again.

[mcnell1120]

Thank you John for the stories

[BayCityJohn]

Edge Philadelphia has published "Meet A Real Life ’Brokeback Mountain’ Couple" about Robert.

http://www.edgephiladelphia.com/index.php?ch=news&sc=&sc2=&sc3=&id=109641

It appears that they found the Courier-Post article without realizing that it was republished in honor of Robert. They mention nothing about his death.

So I clued them in, evidently twice:

This article was originally published in 2006. The Courier-Post reprinted it today in honor of the author, Robert Baxter, who passed away Wednesday after a 2 year battle with pancreatic cancer. Robert’s story is also published in the book "Beyond Brokeback: The Impact of a Film" as "The Brokeback Miracle. Robert was a member of the Ultimate Brokeback Forum, posting under the name ’Tacitus’. Although he hadn’t posted much in the last 2 years he is warmly remembered and will be missed.