How Brokeback affected me

[DaveinPhilly]

oh yeah, someone from this forum sent me an email yesterday (tuesday Australia time), but it went west with a bunch of spam.  my apologies to whoever sent it and a humble request to resend.  I'm curious!

w

So Wolf, what was your neighbour's reaction - other than blown away - Moved toward understanding, horrified, interested, disgusted, frightened, touched, changed...?
We'd love to hear.
Dave

[ImEnnisShesJack]

For some of us (showing my age) The Front Runner was our first "gay novel"; I was actually given it to read as I was just coming out (Indiana, 1977)....

if that's showing your age, i don't even want to think what its doing to mine.  try "giovanni's room".

jack

Jack, was that done on clay tablets or parchment?   
 

[gattaca]

... can you envision a meloni/gyllenhall clinch?   if so, can you still walk and speak?   
jack

If ever there was a movie that involved a "clinch" between Jake & Chris, I'd certainly have to see it ALONE.

WOW and I thought I was the only one to notice Meloni all these years in L/O SVU and then much to my suprise discovering him playing a main role in HBO's Oz...

I'd be afraid, very afraid I'd never be able to silence that one in my thoughts.       But we digress, sorry. Vincent

[mcnell1120]

Alright....I'm sitting here at work ,not feeling good,wondering when they're going to take Brokeback out from the movie theaters.Hmmmmmm. The first showing is at 12:05 pm. That means I can leave at 10:00 am make it to the show,pop a few advils, and make it home b-4 the kids get home from school..........ohhhhh,I love this idea !!!

Best medicine anyone can take.....

[Jaysmommy]

Chris Meloni??? <thud>


actually would it not be so redundant here, and a rather strange career move, i would have mentioned that jake could pull off the student athlete stellarly.  can you envision a meloni/gyllenhall clinch?   if so, can you still walk and speak?   

jack

I would love to see that combination! Meloni and Gyllenhall.......oh my.......yes, yes, yes.....

[DaveinPhilly]

Melloni and anybody!

[desperadum]

I can't recall if I have mentioned previously that Chris Meloni goes to my gym. The mere sight of him is a knee-weakening experience.

[Boris]

Melloni and anybody!

Meloni and I, if I'd have to choose.

And desperadum:

I am envious beyond words.

[mountain boy]

... It feels like being in love... The trees are greener, the wind sweeter and my fellow humans all seem immensely huggable...

We love you too Ms. Wolf! Hugs back to you. I hope our buddies Ang Heath Jake Michelle Anne Annie and all will see your comment too.

[Basqueboy]

Brokeback Mountain has done something very seldom a movie can, It has provided us all a frame of reference to reflect our pain, sorrow, joy, love, hopes and aspirations. It gave us all a mirror to look at ourselves. It gave us a story that we could emotionally attach and this forum provided a place where to share our feelings.
Brokeback provided us with language of loss that we all could understand.  Brokeback hit us directly into heart and ripped our protective layers to shreds. It left us vulnerable and raw but also alive. Brokeback cannot provide meaning and purpose to our lives but it has exposed the need, shown to us that we may have lost our direction and we need to reclaim it.

Thank you Boris, from the bottom of my heart You put in words what has been haunting me since I saw BBM for the first time, some three weeks ago. And I wish my English was half as good as yours. I am Basque, like, supposedly, Joe Aguirre and the mule tender are. But I am not like them. I am a 46 years old gay male, who came to terms with his homosexuality at age 30 and, kind of, came out back then to a reduced bunch of friends. I am committed to a Christian community and have chosen to be celibate, because of my religious engagement.

Before I continue, I want to tell you all that this commitment makes of me the happiest man ever and that has been so for 15 years or so. It's my own way to be happy...

But comming back to the movie, I don't know what happens to me whenever I see it. It's been countless times (20?) and it hits me harder and harder every time. First, it reminded me of my own "Brokeback Mountain", when I was 19, like Jack and Ennis, in a camp. Back then, in our Country and with our background, both for him and me it was unthinkable to come out, even to confess our attraction to each other. It didn't last for as long as Ennis's and Jack's, but it was sweet and tender and filled my memories for years. So, BBM brought forth a flood of old tears for that pair of young boys, unable to express openly their love. But then, this feeling of sadness is always followed by a very deep joy and a desire of being truthful with myself and all the people I love.

I find it difficult to express my feelings, not just because of my lack of ability with English, but mainly because I don't know exactly what I feel! I am intensely moved by BBM, and I wish I knew how to quit it. Thanks to you all, nice people of this forum, I know that I'm not crazy -or all of us are

Perhaps, that's why I like so much the quote I chose form Boris (Thanks again!). Those words express far better than mine what I mean.

Thanks a lot.

[andy]

Pray tell, who is Chris maloni?

[NickInIdaho]

Pray tell, who is Chris maloni?

Andy, I had to look him up to, but I recognize him now....I had to do a google image search for him - plenty of pictures there!!

Nick

[Mejack]

Paul:
I agree completely with wdj, you definitely should begin to tell all the stories that you can dreg up of your imprisonment and visits to Billy, yr life before and after last seeing him. Your story is perhaps the most exceptionally beautiful one here among some quite heart-rending & amazing stories, . .
                                  --sagha

Sagha, and everyone . . .

All of you have been so supportive.  Thank you all.  You've urged me to write more of Billy.  I have found that putting it into words has been a real catharsis for me.  I'm nearing the place of acceptance and it's beginning to feel good.

I went up on Brokeback again (fourth) last night. Each time I'm still shaken to my very soul.  One scene in particular brought back more sweet memories. Jack with his lasso. How playfully he roped Ennis.

I loved Saturdays.  Work was only until noon, and the rest of the day was free-time. Billy lived up the hill in "A Dorm" and the sidewalk led down to me in "B Dorm", and on past there to the ball field.  After lunch, a shower and change of clothes, we'd have the whole glorious afternoon.

Larry knew the drill.  Sitting on the steps of B Dorm, he said "Here comes Billy."  I said "So?" Billy came walking by, expecting, as always, that I'd walk out to join him.  But I just sat there.  He never looked my way. He just walked past.  After about 50 feet, he suddenly stopped, turned on his heel, and went all the way back up the hill. 

He stood up there by the post for quite a while, then started down again. As he passed the steps of B Dorm this time, he looked straight at me as he walked. I joined him without a word.  While we walked, under his breath he muttered "Asshole!"  I laughed.

One day at our place on the grass, Billy was on his back, watching the clouds, one arm behind his head, the other stretched outward.  I moved over some and laid my head on his arm.  He said "you're gonna get us in big trouble."  But he didn't move his arm.  Little intimacies.  Saturdays.  I loved Saturdays.

I asked Billy once, "Ever think about sex?"  "Umm", he answered. "How 'bout you?"   "When I think about it" I said, "I think about you."  He was quiet for a long time as he contemplated.  He had so little experience to draw from.  I can't even imagine what odd pseudo-hetro image he must have conjured up in his mind.  He just said wistfully, "Hell, that ain't gonna work!"

Being in love isn't about sex.  Good thing!   Like Ennis said, "never had the opportunity to be a sinner."  But we had intimacy.  And lots of time to love.

Paul

[andy]

Thanx Nick. have done that and now I know who he is. Is this the guy some are touting for the front runner part?

[Mejack]

Pray tell, who is Chris maloni?

Andy, I had to look him up to, but I recognize him now....I had to do a google image search for him - plenty of pictures there!!

Nick

Nick,
The time stamp on Andy's post, subtracted from the time of your post, deducting the time for the google search itself, indicates that you stared at the pictures for nearly 15 minutes.  Tsk! Tsk!