How Brokeback affected me

[Bethie]

I just need to know if there is going to be a time I can listen to the music from BBM and not fall into a fit of tears??? I have not yet been able to listen to any of the soundtrack straight through without bawling and sobbing. I have owned it for over 2 months now.

And tonight I see this pictures and I am a blubbering mess.

[paintedshoes]

It's funny.  I just saw this same photo on the Eyelashes thread, but had not yet turned on my copy of the soundtrack.  Did that just before I came here and POW!  Right between the eyes.  The opening notes of that plaintive guitar and this gorgeous and sad photo and I'm a puddle again.  Do I say thank you, bcatjr, or rats, cause I thought I was ok tonight?  Thank you.

[Wolf]

SilverLake, but did you actually make the cherry cake?   

Seriously, if I live to be 300 years old I don't think I'll figure this thing out.  There's no rhyme or reason to it when you don't have even the vaguest connection to the story.  To have it be THIS BIG for the likes of lightweights like me, I can only take a very feeble stab at how it must be for those who truly connect.  Those men (and women) who've walked in Ennis or Jack's shoes.  Adds a whole extra layer of import and impact.  I think, quite honestly, that if I were gay and had experienced anything like an E and J scenario, seeing the movie would cause me to implode, or spontaneously combust or something. 

Just wanted to add here that I'm deeply envious of all you good folk who're able to get to the August BBQ.  Many of us will be there in spirit - celebrating .... um ....... er ........ Brokemas?  Incidentally, I hope you're planning on multiple screenings in between beans and coffee - wouldn't be the same without indepth, frame by frame workshoppery!

w

[paintedshoes]

Wolf, I have to tell Auntie killersmom about your name for the BBQ.  She will LOVE it.  thanks.

[Bethie]

It's funny.  I just saw this same photo on the Eyelashes thread, but had not yet turned on my copy of the soundtrack.  Did that just before I came here and POW!  Right between the eyes.  The opening notes of that plaintive guitar and this gorgeous and sad photo and I'm a puddle again.  Do I say thank you, bcatjr, or rats, cause I thought I was ok tonight?  Thank you.

I WAS over there in the eyelashes and I see this pic and I fall to pieces. It has never happened before! I thought the tears were gone. I got my self to a place where Jack and Ennis were always in love and they had finally found peace. And pow!!! this picture, and I am crying all over again. It is so bittersweet. I get so angry with Jack when it comes to this part. He was always so intune to Ennis, how could he not see the pain Ennis was in?? and what it meant to come down the mountain?? (Unless he thought it was going to carry them  into "real life"). Urggh. The love I see in this picture is so intense. And then I had to listen to the "music" and I am back where I was in January. @##@$!!!

To be honest though, I like the tears. It reminds me of so much, mostly how beautiful love can be.

Heck! curse me or thank me, it's okay. Willie is on now!!! I am now a mess again. Acckk!!! All over the planet tonight with feelings.

[paintedshoes]

Never curse you, honey.  Always love you for your honest feelings.  That is what this place is about, isn't it?

[BayCityJohn]

I don't think I've ever asked people to see a movie before.

I emailed my boss and a former coworker today and asked them to please see Brokeback Mountain.

About a month ago my boss made some rude comment about how he couldn't believe the movie got so many awards and nominations. He's a fairly religious person, but I've always found him to be open-minded and tolerant. I'm a card-carrying member of the ACLU and he's a conservative Southern Republican, so I pretty much ignored him at the time. Besides, I couldn't say much because I hadn't seen the movie yet. He emailed his reply today and said that he really didn't know anything about the movie other than the jokes he had been hearing, and that yes he will definitely see the movie now that he knows how it affected me.

My friend Beth said she hadn't planning on seeing it only because she didn't think she would be able to relate to it. I explained to her that Brokeback Mountain isn't your typical gay romance flick. I told her that it is also very much the story of my life. She is staying at a hotel in Mississippi tonight and she is definitely going to watch it in her room. Again, because she knows what it means to me and now she will be able to relate to it.

I haven't talked to Beth for a few months. She invited me to her wedding. Her b/f proposed last week and they will be getting married in Mexico next February. I had to call my friend Maureen to say "We oughta go to Mexico". She loved it. We're going.

[John_in_Saluda_NC]

He emailed his reply today and said that he really didn't know anything about the movie other than the jokes he had been hearing, and that yes he will definitely see the movie now that he knows how it affected me.

My friend Beth said she hadn't planning on seeing it only because she didn't think she would be able to relate to it. She is staying at a hotel in Mississippi tonight and she is definitely going to watch it in her room. Again, because she knows what it means to me and now she will be able to relate to it.

::de-lurking::

Hey John,

Please let us know how your boss, and good friend Beth react to BBM. I always love hearing how others are affected by our baby......or is it a toddler now???   

Hugs from one John to another,
John

::re-lurking::

[Bethie]

Never curse you, honey.  Always love you for your honest feelings.  That is what this place is about, isn't it?

   Back at ya. "Always love you for your honest feelings". 

Thanks for your feedback. Hopefully we can chat manana!

[paintedshoes]

Manana, dear sister.

[danac]

Anyway, was darned wonderful to spend another 2 hrs with the boys.  Wonderful and tortuous, as always.  And of course today I have a BBM hangover so everything's foggy and reality is most irritating.  The worst kind of hangover in the known universe, a BBM hangover.   Hair of the dog .......

Cheers to all the crazy folk - and oh yeah, thanks to whoever mentioned the horrifying possibility of Dave pulling the site  .  fingers in ears .... "la la la la la"

w

Love you, Wolf...isn't it always great ( read" sad, gut-wrenching and charming) to be in the company of the boys for a couple of hours? Honestly, I don't know any real people I'm enjoying that much right now - aside from you UBMG friends!
PS That was me that had that horrifying thought this morning and posted it in a hyperventilated state. I can't live without you guys right now...and maybe never!!!

[BayCityJohn]

One of the first things that struck me when I saw the movie was Joe Aguirre's car driving up. I am almost certain it was a 1960 Rambler Rebel. We had the same car, same color in 1963. Does anybody know where I can find out what vehicles were used in the movie?

[Garry_LH]

Evil Me...
I just got back from the Super Wallyworld. I walked in the door and noticed the usual movie adds were no where in site. Well, I got my cart and headed to the other end of the store, (I always do my shopping there in a big loop) Down at the other end, I check on the movie displays there. Face to face, staring one another down, are Narnia and Brokeback Mountain. I wonder if this is someone's sense of humor? Maybe it's some advertising gimic to create a buying contest between the Lion of the God Mythris and our Sheep Herders. I think I'll vote for Ennis and that 30/30.

I smiled all the way to the pet food department, cruised over to the bargain video rack, and for the first time ever our Wallyworld has the Directors Cut of 'Donnie Darko.' So evil me, I bought it there rather buy it through the link here. Heyyy... I need something to tide me over till BBM gets here!
Garry
John, I was thinking the Rebel line didn't show up until the late sixties. Granddad worked for the local Rambler dealer during this period to build up his SS. I think there was a Rambler, an American, and the Ambassador.  This is also the period when Rambler dang near ruined its name by requiring their wheel bearings to be torqued. (they were trying to get rid of a bearing rumble the couldn't figure out. A rubber mount on the front end of the rear springs finally curred this in 1964) Granddad got them to pack the rear bearings in this grease you had to heat up to even force it into the bearings, and that quieted things down until Rambler put that rubber isolator on the rear spring. Loosing the front wheel bearings back up sure improved their life as well.  Well... enough of my old car rambling.

[Zuraffo]

Please don't feel that your posts are any less Important than ours. I loved your posts.

feel a little guilty for talking inanities in the midst of all these Important Posts, but FWIW (nothing, for the most part)....

[pvjohn]

It finally took the 5th viewing but I now know why BBM (and especially Ennis) has affected me as much as it/he has. My life has been summed up in the story of Ennis. Back in the late 60's I met the one person who could have been my soul-mate for life. I from a small town in midwest and he from the big city. He was out and I was in the "closet". About once a month I made the trek to the big city to see my friend. We had basically what Jack & Ennis had going. Yes he loved me and I him. BUT like Ennis I could not deal with the openess. Thus we met once a month for a weekend..my excuse to friends for doing this so often was not fishing but going to the big city for sporting events. (the trip always coincided with a baseball game, basketball game etc.) Like Jack, he pushed for me to move to the city and set up house. He would call me often and usually the conversation ended in tears because he missed me so much. After a year of the once a month trips, he and I sat down and talked. He did not "quit" me. I "quit" him. I told him he deserved so much more and he needed to find someone who could give him what he needed. Now 40 years later, I live alone knowing that I lost the one love of my life. I have not thought of Robert for some time now, but BBM has brought back a lot of warm memories of our time together. To Robert,who may never see this, I am sorry and all I can say is Robert...I swear.